In my mind it still is June. I don\’t know where the rest of the year went or what happened to it. It just happened so quickly.
2019 was nothing short of being caught in a riptide. The times I can remember when I had my head above water was few and far between. More often than not I was caught in a desperate gasp for air and space and quiet and rest.
Most of the year was spent in a zombie like state between trying to get from one job to the next while smiling and making small talk, while deep down, all I want is my bed. On more than one occasion I felt that booking myself into a hospital and requesting to be put to sleep for 2 weeks seems a very viable option. Right now, as I\’m sitting here and everyone is feeling festive and happy and in celebratory moods, all I can thing of is how long it is till I can go to bed.
But, it\’s not all bad. My Love and I have a deeper and stronger relationship than ever before
My son is back home and he has turned into the young man I always new he could be. He makes me more proud with every day that goes past.
I couldn\’t be more blessed.
I\’m sorry about friends that were lost this year. Getting upset because I again can\’t make it to a braai or not liking the fact that I call your bluff on gossip…. Well, do I really want those kind of \”friends\”? I am grateful for knowing who my real friends are – tho ones who understand and stick around and jump out to help at the drop of a hat, those are my kind of people.
I am healthy, albeit a little overweight.
I have a job that pays well enough
I have a safe, secure, warm, dry home that is filled with love and laughter and crazy moments and friends that pop in at all hours and a garden that gets better by the day
I have grown and healed and walked a step or two closer to the person I am meant to be
I am happy.
Is there really more to ask for?
Besides making me tired (which I intend to remedy with a lot of sleep over the next couple of days), 2019 have made me stronger and wiser. I am not broken or bruised by the year, but instead I am filled with hope and a bubbling sense of anticipation. Next year can really only get better!
